another round of Q&A for you.  we switched it up this time…rather than pull from the initial 50 q’s we asked & answered when we launched our blog we decided to answer the same questions and do it right before we posted.  One thing we’ve both realized…indeed time changes everything…our answers of the past aren’t exactly our answers of the present. you can find mine on ashleys page.  enjoy.

What has been your biggest let down in life?

The biggest let down in life so far as been the honesty of the human race. Its completely gone. People lie (including myself) to hurt, and betray; to find revenge; to cover something up; to spare one’s feelings; and worst of all….because they have nothing better to do. Its disgusting, and completely unnessacary. It ruins relationships, friendships, and families.

 If you could pick one song to be playing in the background of a sex scene in your life, what would it be?

We are at a party. College age kids everywhere, our love is fresh, young, and lustful. We dominate the beerpong table, highfives and fist pumping everywhere. We get caught in a moment and head to the bathroom. Heated, passionate, on the counter and against the wall. The song playing would be….damn… I’m really trying to think of a good one…. Oh I know exactly what would be playing in the background and that party….Thunderstruck by ACDC.

 What is the hardest thing in life you’ve had to face?

The hardest thing in life I’ve ever had to face so far would be the week my mom was on life support and then taking her off and watching her die. It was an insanely hard decision but it had to be made. My family and I knew my mom wouldn’t want to be lying in a hospital as a vegetable or having people see her like that. The doctors had told us she was brain dead and there was nothing more they could do but as soon as the decision was made official, I was overwhelmed with the feeling that we should have waited a few more days or even hours to give her a chance to pull through. But those are selfish feelings, her soul needed to escape that body. She was taken too soon from me and everyone who loved her but I know she’s watching over us. She is my guardian angel.

 If you were to have your own perfume fragrance what would the name be?

I would like to think it’d be something romantic, or flowery. Even though I’m not really either of those… Well I can be at times I suppose but anyway. I’m thinking….

Something outdoorsy, but in the city. Sin City by Ashley Hannan…. No I don’t love Vegas that much, even though I have stories that’ll last me a lifetime from there. Dirty Venice Love. DVL for the fashionistas.

How do you think people view you? Who do they see when they see you

As of this moment in my life, I think people see me as a joke. I don’t think they take my passions or dreams very seriously. Just because I want a better life, something that could end up on THS or TMZ for that matter doesn’t mean it wouldn’t be real. Or that I didn’t work hard to get there. I can honestly say a few people in my life believe in me, and believe in my dreams. Everyone else will just be asking me for money one day.

How I view Ashley

The first time I met Ashley she came into my old store for a job.  I instantly knew there was something special about her…a spark…a drive…a beautiful soul.  It shouldn’t go unsaid that she intimidated the hell out of me.  She has this quiet demeanor about her.  It’s something that I didn’t know how to take at first but something I’ve grown to appreciate about her.  She isn’t frivolous. She takes in the little moments life gives…she listens and cares. She’s an amazing woman who has grown from my employee…to my partner (business people)…to my best friend.  Ashley gets life…she has something that most don’t…the ability to see through bullshit and tell it exactly how it is.  She’s wiped my tears on days when she should have been shedding them herself…she’s listened to me rant about everything under the sun…she’s told me when I’m wrong and put up with my obsessive bbm’s when I really can’t deal with something.  She’s genuine and the most unselfish person I’ve ever met. I’m not sure how other people see her but to me…she’s a light in my life.

 What is your “issue”? Your own personal demon? Something you’ve struggled with your whole life?

Hmmm, my “issue”…. Its really hard to pin point just one, haha. But I’d have to say I live in a constant stage of guilt. And its not that I do anything to deserve it really. Its like people know exactly how to make me feel sorry for them or how to make me feel guilty for being mad when they did something first. So this issue usually means I give out way too many “second” chances, and I get more fucked in the end. As many times that I have been walked on, and fucked over I continue to be naïve and believe there is good people in this world that will never hurt me. Good people who are my friends and good people that are strangers who could become my friends… And for that I will struggle with being a pushover and feeling guilty for life.