Here you go folks! Another piece of the complicated yet sincere Ms. Jaimie Rae. We asked and answered the same questions, funny how alike we actually are in most ways. Must be soulmates.   Read on and be sure to check mine out on Jaimie’s page! (Bare with her, bless her heart she can’t make any of her thoughts come across simply, just another thing I love about her).

What has been your biggest let down in life?

Selfishness.  It’s the core of almost, if not every, let down I’ve ever experienced…not only just other peoples but my own as well. When I think about let downs I’ve had they all boil down to that one thing…utter selfishness.  Done to me or done by me.

You’re in a movie. You have a sex scene…what song is playing and what is the situation that got you there?

Hahhahaha…god. how do you answer a question like this on the spot. Hmmm. Ok. Here’s my “situation”. Theres a guy (obviously) something happened…he walked away from me…maybe I got scared…and maybe…just maybe I was pushing him away to see if he cared enough to fight for me.  Weeks pass…maybe even months.  I try to move on with my life…realizing that obviously he didn’t care…that I wasn’t worth fighting for…(now here’s where it may get a bit cliché) it’s night.  I’m walking home…it’s raining…thoughts of him are still beating around in my head…just can’t let go of him…let go of the fact that he could let me walk out of his life so easily…I arrive at my door…he’s there…waiting for me in the rain.  We lock eyes…no words are spoken…there’s no need for them…everything that needs to pass between us could never be said with words.  He stands up, brushes my hair back from my face so he can see my eyes…takes my hand in his…kisses me…and in we go…you can take it from there…

As for songs…i can’t pick one…but here’s a list of what would play throughout this whole montage. Beginning to end

** add something from iron & wine in there and ANYTHING Damien Rice.

Ryan Adams: Come Pick Me Up

Ryan Adams: Desire

Ray LaMontagne: Jolene

Rolling Stones: Wild Horses

Ryan Adams: Blossom

Ray LaMontagne: I Still Care For You

Cold Play: Green Eyes

Bright Eyes: First Day Of My Life

These songs play out everything EXCEPT the sex scene…I can’t say what that would be…it’s not fun if you have everything figured out

If that’s too boring (or mushy) for you…there’s always this scene…passionate something or other…the song to do the “scene” to would be My Superman by Santigold.  Don’t know why…has always hit me as a great sex song.  haha

What is the hardest thing in life you’ve had to face?

Hearing fragments of the doctors voice as she told me my son has type 1 diabetes.  I’ll never forget that moment. Sitting in the dark hospital room, Christian holding my hand looking at me, trying to figure out what was going on. I remember the buzz inside my head…only hearing the word “diabetes” out of a 5 minute speech …crying harder than I ever have inside and trying to swipe silent tears from my cheeks and muffle sobs before he could see or hear them…seeing the confusion and fear on my sons face. I have never felt, sorrow, anger or been scared like that in my life.  Today, it’s still the hardest thing…knowing all the side effects that happen to someone that fights this disease their whole life…no parent ever wants to know that one day in the future their child will have serious medical issues…

If you were to have your own perfume fragrance what would the name be?

No clue.  I only wear one kind…I’d steal their scent and call it…”just me”…haha that’s stupid…I have no idea.  Maybe…without wax.  Yeah…shit no…that’s stupid too.  I’m stumped.  Sorry. Next. 

How do you think people view you? Who do they see when they see you?

Ugghhh…going deep today aren’t we?? How do people view me? I can’t say for sure.  I don’t know that anyone can answer this question accurately.  All I can do is relay what I’ve gathered the past 28 years.  I’ll start with girls.  I’m really intimidated by them.  When I’m in a group of girls I close up and get really insecure. I always automatically assume they don’t like me or they’re judging me. (never claimed I don’t have issues). Anyhow…in conversations with girl friends of mine they say that I come off intimidating & bitchy…unapproachable.  This I would contribute to my actions when I get around them.  Guys: this is much easier to answer.  A piece of ass.  Wish I could say more about how guys view me but that sums it up.  It’s like there’s this invisible barrier somewhere in between what’s presented to the world (my exterior) and the depths of who I am. They can never seem to get inside me even if the door is standing wide open. Like their brain shuts off somewhere between pretending to want to get to know me and wanting to sleep with me.  They play the game of saying all the right things…then…yeah…just a piece of ass. The girl to want…never to love.

How I think people view Jaimie

I think people are imtimidated by her beauty and strength. And don’t completely ‘get’ her, they judge her too quickly and don’t take the time to understand her. Some of this is her fault because she doesn’t initially give herself up too quickly. Some people take that as her being a bitch but its really because her heart has been broken too many times.

What is your “issue”? Your own personal demon? Something you’ve struggled with your whole life?

Ahhhh….a million dollar question. One answer, that can’t be explained in a few short words.(I’ll apologize in advance for the length of this answer.) My belief in people.  It’s been a source of a lot of pain my entire life.  No matter what I’ve been through in the past, for some reason there’s this massive part of me that continues to believe in the good of people.  It burns me every time and almost ALWAYS leaves me kicking myself in the ass because I was stupid enough (once again) to believe in them.  It is my biggest personal struggle.  For some reason, no matter what happens to me, eventually I bounce back like a child and forget to put my guard up.  I believe that someone is going to do what they say they will, that they care for me as much as they say they do, that they’ll be there tomorrow.  I believe when someone tells me they’re going to do something…I believe when someone tells me they believe in me…I believe them when they tell me they’ll be honest with me…the list goes on…I never see ulterior motives and…of course…they’re always there.  I only see them after, as I’m picking myself up and trying to put the pieces back together.  I believe in the good of people…and I hate myself for it.  I want so badly to remember my scars & keep everyone at a distance…but…I just can’t ever seem to get there…why…because it scares me.  It scares me to know that if I really thought about everything life has handed me I would never be able to love…never be able to care, to cry, to laugh from my soul.  I would never appreciate or see the beautiful moments life gives me.  I don’t want to miss any of that…so…I fight a constant battle with myself.  I want to believe in happy ever afters…in friends that will always be true…in lovers that say only what is real…in people that see me FOR WHO I REALLY AM…I want to believe that when someone tells you you bring them hope, that they like being good to you, they mean it…I want to believe that people won’t just disappear from your life taking a piece of you with them when they go. One day it might be enough…that day may come when I go cold…when I can’t bring myself to believe…but until then, I’ll continue to fight…to hope…this is my demon…my battle…